Chirugali Veechindi

Part 1:  28 Apr 19

Sagar bag lo anni pack chesukoni Secunderabad railway station lo wait chestunnadu train kosam inka Saranya kosam kuda. Tanu blue jeans inka red and black checks shirt vesukoni wait chestunnadu. Delhi vellalsina train inko half n hour lo platform medaku vastundi. Saranya akkadiki appatike vachestanandi. ento late kanukkundamani Sagar mobile teesi whatsapp cheyaboyadu. Tanu ping cheselope Saranya ping chesindi. Late ayyela undi nuvu bayalderu tarwata video call cheddamani. 

Kani Sagar oppukoledu. “ala ela avutundi. Nekosame nenu wait chestunna. Train ravadaniki inka time undi nuvu ra. ninnu choosi veltanu annadu. Sare try chesta ani reply ichindi. Train ravadaniki 15 min eh undi. Sagar platform no.1 meda nilabadi pade pade entrance vaipu chustu unnadu. Appude Saranya lopaliki vachindi. Sagar kallu veligipoyayi anandam tho. Saranya face lo matram koddiga bhayam, ibbandi kanabaddayi. Enduka ani Sagar alochinchelope Saranya venaka valla father kuda vacharu. Saranya tana inti nundi bayalderemundu valla father ekkdiki ani adigite friend IAS training veltunnadu. ma friends andaram sendoff ivvadaniki station ki veltunnam ani cheppindi. Appudu ontariga pampadam ishtam leka, Saranya valla nanna kuda vachadu. Saranya vaddani cheppaleka rammandi. Ippudu tanu Sagar vaipu nadustu ela manage cheyalo artham kaka confusing state lo undi. Sagar daggariki vachina ventane “Hi Sagar, Mana migilina friends andaru ekkada?” ani adigindi. Daniki ventane shock tinna Sagar, terukoni, valla nanna undadam valla ala adugutondani artham chesukoni ventane andaru 3rd platform meda wait chestunnaru. train akkadike vastundi. nenu mekosam 1st platform medaku vachanu annadu. Oh alaga ani ventane tana father ni parichayam chesindi. Hi uncle, ela unnaru ani Sagar palakarinchadu. Valla nanna: nuvu chala great babu, IAS kottadam ante maatala. your parents are lucky. WIsh you all the best ani cheppadu. Thanks uncle ani Saranya vaipu badhaga chusadu. Saranya kuda chala badhatho nindina kallatho ala chusi ventane valla nanna ki doubt vastundemo ani “Sagar, akkadiki eppudu reach avutav?” ani adigindi telisi kuda. Repu morning 9am ki annadu Sagar. inka konni casual questions tarwata, train vacheste Sagar friends lerani valla nanna ki telisi Sagar ni kuda tappuga anukuntademo ani bhayapadi, train vachedaka undalani entha asaga unna, “Sare Sagar, wish you all the best. Akkada training ela untundo tarwata cheppu. inka memu veltam andi. Daniki ventane shock aina Sagar, undochuga train vache varaku annatlu Saranya ni chusadu. Daniki Saranya emi cheppaleka “3rd Platform medaku vellu..train vache time aindi" ani cheppi jagratta ani maatalu baitaku rakunda Sagar ki kanabadela only pedala movement chestu, venakki tirigindi. Sagar ki okkasari mundu roju valliddaru matladukunna maatalu gurtochayi.: Saranya Sagar tho, repu evening ninnu station daggara chusaka malli eppudu chustano.. nuvu malli 4 months varaku raavu. nenu undalenu anni rojulu ante daniki Sagar - na valla kuda kadu. Repu nenu 1 hour munde staton ki vastanu nuvu kuda ra Saru annadu. Vastanu sure ga, train vachevaraku ne bhujam meda vaalipoyi ne chetilo chey pettukoni, chalasepu matladukundam andi. Annatle enno asalatho and Saru ni vadili veltunnanane badhatho Sagar 1 hour munde vachadu. Kani Saranya valla father train vache mundu veldam le ani late chesadu. Saranya lolopala badhapadutunna, valla nanna ki cheppalekapoindi. 

Sagar wait chesi wait chesi Saranya vachaka tanatho unna anandam okka nimisham kuda sarigga ledu. Formal ga matladukoni train rakamunde vellipoindi. Saranya ala veltonte okkasariga Sagar ki kallallo neellu tirigayi. venakki pilichi hug chesukovalannanta prema. kani valla nanna undadam valla aagipoyadu. Saranya exit daka velli baitaku velle okka kshanam lo okkasari Sagar vaipu choosi vellipoindi. Sagar ki em cheyalo artham avaledu. ventane whatsapp open chesi “I love u so much Saru.. Will miss u a lot” ani msg pampadu. Tarwata akkade kurchoni Saranya tho teepi gnapakalu gurtu techukuntu wait chesadu. 5 min lo train vachindi. Train ekki kurchunna kuda anni Saranya alochanale. 

Saranya gurinchi cheppalante tanu chala andamaina ammayi. 5’6” height tho, daniki tagga weight tho chalamandi abbayilu chusina ventane padipoyela unde ammayi. too much western dresses veyakunda ekkuvaga decent indian attire lo untundi. ekkuvaga chudidars vestundi. Saranya Hyderabad Cisco lo 3 years nundi systems engineer ga work chestondi. Valla father JNTU lo professor, amma housewife. Tanaku chelli kuda undi. Aa ammayi peru Ramya - B.Tech 3rd year chaduvutondi. Saranya and Ramya Hyderabad lone putti perigaaru. 

Sagar Kurnool atanu. koddiga nalupu unna baga kala unna face. 5’8” height undi chala simple ga unde tatvam. Ekkuvaga galla chokka vesukoni jeans vesukuntadu.  Valla amma tanaku 12 years unnappude cancer valla chanipoindi. Valla nanna, Sagar tappa intlo evaru undaru. Valla nanna chinna restaurant lo cook. Kashtapadi Sagar ni chadivinchadu. Appudappudu valla nanna restaurant nundi meals intiki teesukochevadu valliddarikosam.
 

Train city daatindi. Sagar window pakkana kurchoni, challani gaali veestonte ala cheekatlo dooram ga chustu tana gathaanni gurtu techukunnadu. Sagar 15 yella vayasu varaku tana father tho Kurnool lo ne unnadu. 10th lo machi marks ravadam valla 2008 lo Hyderabad Sri Chaitanya clg lo free seat sampadinchi akkade MPC cheradu. Boys hostel kavadam valla sagar ki ammayilato parichayame ledu and Sagar mundu kuda ammayiato chanuvuga matladadaniki bhayapadevadu. Aa hostel lo untu baga chaduvukunevadu. Eppatikina valla nannani baga chusukovali, tana restautant pani maaninchesi free ga kurchobetti chusukovalani asa padevadu. Valla nanna, koduku weekend tests lo marks chustu murisipoyevadu. Vaaraniki okasari valla nannaki phone chesi matladevadu. ala jarugutu 1st year inter exams vachayi. Appudu tanaki Hyderabad lo Rajarajeswari college center ga padindi. Modati exam ki tension padutu bus lo bayalderadu. center daggara digagane Sagar ki tension ekkuvaindi. andaru aadara baadaraga books tiragestunnaru. Sagar ye book techukoledu. andarini choosi bhayapaddadu. Dani nundi bayataku ravadaniki pakkane unde vinayakudi gudiloki velladu. akkada exams baga rayalani mukkuntu pradakshinalu cheyadam modalu pettadu. pradakshina chestu gudiki venaka bhaganiki ragane, oka ammayi Blue dress lo chetilo writing pad and hallticket pattukoni tana mundu nadavadam chusadu. aa ammayi hair loose ga undi clip pettindi. bhayam tho kudina bhakti tho chala mellaga adugulu vesukuntu pradakshinalu chestu undi. chudadaniki baga dabbunna ammayila kanabadutondi. Oka chetiki watch and inkoka chetiki red and silver bracelet. Chevulaki butta kammalu petukoni chala padhatiga and rich ga undi.  Aa ammayi ala nadustu unte boys hostel lo untu anthakamundeppudu ammayilane chudani Sagar aasharyamtho inka aasakti tho tana vente nadichadu. Ammayilane chudani Sagar ki ee ammayi entha andamga untundo chudalani aasakti perigipoindi. 

Pradakshinalu aipoyaka, aa ammayi ganta kodutu undaga Sagar chusadu. okkasariga aa ammayi andaniki tana moham lo velugu vachindi. Inka matladakundane aa ammayi tanade ainanta anandapaddadu. aa ammayi matram Sagar ni gamaninchakunda poojari gariki tana pad, pen inka hall ticket ichi pooja cheyamandi. Vaatiki pooja cheste exam baga raastananna aa ammayi amayakatvam chusi Sagar ki muchatesindi. Aa ammai pooja ayyaka exam center vaipu nadichindi. tarwata tanu kuda mukkoni exam center vaipu nadichadu. center bell kottina ventane, Sagar tana oohallo nundi terukoni exam gurinchi alochinchadam modalu pettadu. Tana hall ekkado chusukoni akkadiki velli kurchunnadu. Inka exam ki 5 min time undadam tho tanu chadivina important questions malli gurtu chesukuntu kurchunnadu. eelopu hall loki ade ammayi malli vachindi. Sagar modatisari aa ammayini front angle lo chusadu. Cute ga navvutu unna aa ammai moham chudagane Sagar ki tension poyi sudden ga anandam modalaindi. Kani tanu ala nadustu vastu unte Sagar gunde gattiga kottukovadam madalaindi. aa ammayi ekkada kurchuntundo ani tension paddadu. aa ammayi ala nadustu vachi sagar venaka seat lo ne kurchundi. tanu kurchunna ventane sagar sudden ga alert ayyadu. tana dress sarichesukoni nitaruga kurchunnadu. venakki chudadam bagundadani, munde chustu malli aa ammayi tanane observe chestu untundani oohinchukuntu unnadu. appude examiner hall loki vachindi. answer sheets and question papers distribute chesindi. Sagar ventane question paper lo anni prashnalu choodasagadu.  

Part 2:  30 Apr 19

Exam start ayyi 1 hour aindi. Sagar baga intelligent and hardworking guy, so tanaku anni questions ki answer telusu. Chala focussed ga raasukuntu unnadu. Intalo tana veepuki edo tagilinatlu anipinchindi. Emayyundadule ani tiragakunda tana answers raasukuntu kurchunnadu. Malli koddisepatiki malli edo tagilinatlu anipinchindi. eesari emayyuntunda ani tirigi choosadu. venaka rendu chinna paper balls padi unnay. Ventane aa ammayi vaipu tirigi choosadu. tanu raasukuntu undi. kani enduko tanani evaro chustunnaru annatlu anipinchi tala ethi choosindi. Eduruga Sagar tanani chustunnadu question mark face tho. Ee ammayi kuda tanu enduku chustunnado artham kaka question mark face tho ne chusindi. appudu pakkanundi ‘Shshh’ ani voice vachindi. Aa ammayi pakkane okadu kurchoni unnadu. vade Sagar ni paper tho kottadu. Sagar vanni chusina ventane, "koddiga chupinchava pls, fail aipota” annadu. Adi chusina aa ammayi ventane chinna navvu navvindi. Sagar normal ga exams lo chupinche type kadu. kashtapadi chadivite vaadevado easy ga na paper lo chusi marks kottestadane feeling ekkuva. Kani eesari ammayi undi kabatti tana mundu intelligent la chupinchukovadaniki, paper koddiga side petti chupinchadu. Aa ammayiki kuda paper kanabadutunna, tanu matram chudakunda rayalani try chesindi. kani aa ammayiki last lo oka question ki answer telidu. Appudu chudalanipinchina, chuste cheap aipotam ani chudakunda aa answer vadilesi vachindi. Intikellaka feel ayyindi marks takkuva vastayani. Next exam ki malli Sagar mundugane vachi gudiki velladu ammayi emaina kanabadutundemo ani. Kani akkada ledu. Koddiga disappoint ayyi, center ki velli hall vaipu velladu. Akkada aa ammayi mundugane tana seat lo kurchuni undi.

Sagar lopaliki vachina ventane aa ammayi kuda Sagar ni chusindi. Sagar ventane bhayapadi kallu pakkaku tippesadu. mellaga aa ammayi vaipu nadustu tanani chudalanipinchina bhayam valla chudakunda hall ticket chusukuntu velli kurchunnadu. idanta chusina aa ammayi Sagar bhayam  inka siggu chusi tanalo taanu navvukundi. Sagar kurchunnaka, tanato matladalani chala asa padutu unnadu. Aa ammayi gontu vinalani, tana kallallo chustu matladalani, tanatho friendship cheyalani chala anukuntu unnadu manasulo. Alage tanato em matladalo manasulo practice chesukuntunnadu - “Hi andi, ninna exam baga rasara?” “chi chi, idem baledu, chaduvu gurinchi matladite nenu pustakaala purugu anukuntundi” “Hi andi, nannu gurtu pattara? ninna gudilo kalisam” “vammo ila chepte eppudu kalisam? ante paruvu potundi” “aithe ila chepdam - hi andi, meeru chala bagunnaru” “ila ante nenu maree sollu kaarchukune vedhava ani cheap ga chuste” “vaddule” ila Sagar alochinchukuntu undaga, venaka nundi voice “Hi andi” ani pilicharu. Evaraa ani Sagar venakki tirigi chusadu. Okka kshanam shock ayyadu. Ninna Sagar paper chusi copy kottina Goutam gadu aa ammayini pilichadu. Aa ammayi ventane Goutam ni chusindi. Goutam ventane “exam ki baga prepare ayyara? chudadaniki tension padutu unnaru” annadu. Daniki aa ammayi “avunandi, mekela telusu. Naku maths sariga raavu. pass aithe chalu anukuntunna.” andi

Goutham: “Avuna, em kadulendi. mekemaina help kavalante nenu chesta exam lo”

Ammayi: “Ammo naku bhayamandi. Madam chuste”

G: “Chuselaga copy kodatama enti. nenu meku kanabadela paper pedatanu. chusi raasukondi.”

A: “Chala thanks andi. eeroju exam baga raaste ade chalu.”

G: “raaddam lendi” ani annadu edo anni veedu sonthamga raasevaadilaga. 

Goutam baga fair ga tall ga untadu. chudadaniki chala handsome ga untadu. Baga dabbunna vallla abbayi kavadam valla dressing and accessories baga maintain chestadu. Kani potta koste aksharam mukka raadu. 

Goutam inka aa ammayi matladukune conversation vintu unna Sagar ki navvalo edavalo artham avaledu. okavaipu aa ammayiki nene ee offer direct ga ichundochu, kani chance miss ayyanani feel avutunnadu.

Inkovaipu, na paper lo chusi copy kotte vedhava inkokariki chupistanani offer ivvadamenta ani navvukunnadu. 

Exam start aina 45min tarwata, Sagar ki malli veepu meda paper tagilindi. venakki tirigi chuste Goutam chupinchamantu saigalu chestu unnadu. “nekosam kakapoina aa ammayi kosamaina neku chupistara” ani manasulo anukuntu, tana paper ni Goutam ki kanabadela chupinchadu. Goutam raayadam modalu pettadu serious ga. 

koddisepatiki, pakkanunna ammayi tana cheyi chaapi pen tho signal chestu Goutam ni pilustondi. “koddiga chupinchava” ani mellaga adigindi. Ventane Goutam vaadu Sagar nundi copy kottina questions chupinchadu. Aa ammayi twara twaraga raasesukundi. Ala exam aipoindi. Sagar valla iddaru gattekkaru. Exam aipoina ventane aa ammayi Goutam ki thanks cheppindi. daniki Goutam “urike thanks kaadu. party ivvali ninnu pass cheyinchinanduku” annadu. Sarele sure ga ista exams aipoyaka ani andi. Ivanni vinna Sagar ventane akkada undi valla conversation vinaleka vellipoyadu. 

Intikellaka night chadavadam meda concentrate cheyalekapoyadu. chaduvtu unte anni aa ammayi alochanale. inkoa 4 days aipote aa ammayi evaro kuda kanukkolem. ee 4 days lo elagaina matladali ani book mundu pettukoni ceiling vaipu chustu alochistunnadu. Madhaylo ee Goutam gadokadu. Paanakam lo pudakalaga anukuntu repu nene velli aa ammayini peru adigesta anukunnadu. Peru adagadaniki oka saaku kuda tayaru chesukunnadu. hall loki vellina ventane ila chepte baguntundani plan chesukunnadu - "emandi, me peru Sakshi na? baita uncle evaro sakshi ni okasari piluvu babu annadu” ani adigite tanu “kadu naa peru idi” ani cheptundi. appudu nenu “oo.. alaga mari sakshi evaro telusa meku?” anukuntu conversation start chesta ani fix ayyadu. Plan bagundanukoni tanalo taane murisipotu appudappudu chaduvukuntu night gadipesadu. 

Next roju rane vachindi. Exam center ki velladu. Akkada andaru evari gola lo vallunnaru. Sagar tana hall ki velli chuste akkada Goutam unnadu but aa ammayi ledu. Sagar seat daggariki vellina ventane, Goutam palakarinchadu.

G: “Hi bro, ela unnav. thanks ninna monna help chesinanduku. Eeroju avasaram ledule. ee subject naku baga vachu”

S: “Oh alaga, aithe meeru naku help chestaranamata” ani Goutam tho antu peeda viragadaindi ani manasulo anukunnadu. 

Daniki Goutam navaadu. Inthalo aa ammayi hall loki vachindi. Sagar dhairyam kudagattukovadam start chesadu. Aa ammayi seat daggariki ragane “indaka evaro baita sakshi kosam adigarandi. Meeru Sakshi na?” ani conversation start cheddamanukunnadu. 

Aa ammayi nidananga naduchukuntu vastondi. Appudu ventane Goutam “Hi andi, eeroju baga prepare ainatlu unnaru” annadu. Ventane aa ammayi “Maths tappa migilinavanni naku problem ledandi” ani andi chinnaga navvutu. 

Goutam ventane “by the way, me pere adagadam marichipoyanu ninna, I am goutam, me peru?” annadu. ventane valliddarini observe chestu unna Sagar ki gunde jaarinanta pani aindi. Tanu adagalsina peru vaadevado adugutunnadani lolopala koppadutu baitaki navvu maintain chesadu. Aa ammayi ventane “na peru Pallavi andi” ani cheppindi. Goutam “oh nice name” annadu. Pallavi thanks cheptu kurchundi tana seat lo. Inka ippudu malli merena Sakshi ani adigite chandalanga untundani artham chesukoni Sagar silent aipoyadu. 

Aaroju exam aina ventane hostel ki velli, valla roommate secret ga daachukunna mobile adigi teesukoni, Orkut lo Pallavi ani search chesadu. chala mandi Pallavilu vacharu. Andulo kontamandi heroines photos pedite, marikontamandi flowers or nature photos pettukunnaru. Chala takkuvamandi valla own photos pettukunnaru. vaallalo andarini opikaga vethiki chusadu. Kani Sagar meet aina Pallavi profile matram kanipinchinatlu anipinchaledu tanaki. Disappointment tho chadavaleka koddisepu books pakkana petti friends tho matladi tarwata chaduvukovadam start chesadu. 

Ila inko rendu exams aipoyayi. Sagar ki Pallavito ela matladalo artham avaledu. Tanaku antha dhairyam kuda ledu. inka last exam day vachesindi. Aaroju udayame lechina Sagar ki exams aipotunnayanna anandam kante, Pallavi ni eeroju tarwata malli chudalenemo anna bhayam, badhe ekkuvayyayi. Eeroju kani tanu matladakapote inkeppudu aa ammayitho matladalenani bhayapaddadu. Edo miss avutunna feeling tanani talachivestondi. 16 yella vayasulo unna Sagar tanakunnadi Pallavi meda love eh ani decide chesukunnadu. Adi kevalam attraction emo anna alochana kuda tanaku raavadam ishtapadaledu. tanaki tanu Pallavi meda unna feeling chala pavitramaina prema ani convince chesukunnadu. tanakunna siggu valla tana feelings ni tana friends evariki cheppukoledu. Kani elagaina aaroju Pallavito matladi teerali ani nirnayinchukunnadu. 

Exam center ki mundugane velli kurchunnadu. Pallavi vachi kurchuntunna tanatho emi matladaledu, endukante exam aipoyaka chala time untundi appude matladadam anukunnadu. exam raasesi bell kosam wait chesadu. Bell kottina ventane Sagar ki kaalu cheyi aadaledu. Late cheste aa ammayi vellipotundi. Matladalante em matladali? Ela start cheyali? anukuntu bhayapadutunnadu. Exam last roju kavadam valla pakka  room lo kurchunna Pallavi friends iddaru bell kottina ventane Pallavi daggariki vachesaru. Sagar ki inka bhayamesindi. Ammayi okkate unte edo rakamga matladochu, kani ippudu valla friends tho undi inkem matldatam, asale naku bhayam, "inka ee jeevitaniki ee ammayiki naku ide akhari roju anukuni vellipovadame" ani manasulo anukuntu room nundi baitaku vachadu. Tanu baitaku vachina kuda tana manasu matram aa ammayi ventane tirugutu undi. Inni rojulu matladalanukoni asa padda ammayitho kaneesam okka maata kuda matladakunda vellipotunnane anna badhe ekkuvaindi. ala baruvaina gunde tho, chala niraasatho main gate vaipu slow ga nadavasagadu. Intalo venaka nundi evaro “Hello” annaru. Sagar okkasari venakki tirigi chuste akkada black coat vesukoni TTE nilabadi unnadu. “Ticket chupinchandi” ani gambheeramaina gonthuto Sagar vaipu cheyi chaapaadu. Antavaraku tana oohallo unna Sagar baitaku terukoni ventane tana back pocket lo unna purse nundi ticket teesi TTE ki chupinchadu. TTE chusi ticket venakki ivvagane, Sagar - “Sir, train lo pantry unda? emaina tinadaniki dorukutaya” ani adigadu. Daniki TTE - “ledu babu, next Nagpur station vastondi. Akkada dorukutay, digi techuko” annadu. “thanks sir” ani cheppi, tana bag lo nundi water bottle teesukoni, taagutu tanalo taane navvukunnadu.  

Part 3: 12 May 19

Marusati roju udayam 9 gantalaku Sagar Delhi cherukunnadu. Railway retiring room lo fresh ayyi ala tiffin cheyadaniki baitaku vachadu. Railway station baita unna veedhi chevarlo oka samosa shop daggaraku velli “Bhayya rendu samosa ivvu” ani Hindi lo adigadu. Sagar samosa tinesi entha aindi ani adigadu. Ventane shop vaadu “20 rs sir”, “Coffee tea emaina kavala sir? annadu. Sagar “Vaddu” ani purse lo nundi money teestu undaga shop vaadu “Coffee teesukondi sir. ikkada coffee chala famous” annadu. Sagar “vaddule” ani dabbu ichesi pakkaku vachesadu. 

Ala koddiga endalo nadustu tirigi vastunna kuda Sagar mind lo inka aa shop vaadu cheppina maatale gurtostunnayi - “ikkada coffee chala famous” ani. 

Tanato parichayamaina kothallo Saranya ala cheppedi Sagar tho “ikkada coffee baga famous Sagar, Hyderabad lo best coffee” ani. Aa maatalu Sagar ki gurtochayi. Ala nadustu valla first coffee meeting gurtu chesukunnadu. 

Sagar inter first year exams ayyaka summer holidays lo Saranya ni kalavadaniki Kukatpalli loni ‘Friends cafe’ ki velladu. Akkada Saranya already red chudidar lo wait chestu undi. Tanokkate coffee shop lo kurchunte bagundadani baite unna busstop daggara wait chestu nilabadindi. Sagar ragane ikkada unna annatlu cheyi oopindi. Sagar ventane tana daggariki vachi, “hi andi, ela unnaru” annadu. Saranya Sagar tho patu nadustu  “Andi enti Sagar. Saranya ani pilavochu kada” andi. 

Sagar: “Ante inka kotha kadandi. ala pilavalante koddiga ibbandiga untundi”

Saranya: “Adem ledu. nenemanukonu. nuvu nannu “meeru” “andi” ani piliste nenu kuda ninnu alage pilavalsi vastundi, adi naku ibbandiga untundi” ani andi chamatkaaramga navvutu. 

Sagar Saranya tanani enta close ga feel avutundo oohinchukuntu lolopala anandapadi “alagelendi, sorry, alage Saranya” ani ibbandiga tana peru pilichadu. 

Iddaru coffee shop lo oka side wall ki daggara unna table lo kurchunnaru. Sagar ki koddiga tension ga undi. oka ammayito coffee shop ki ravadam ide first time. ela handle cheyalo em matladalo teliyadu naku ani manasulo anukuntu vachadu shop ki. 

Sagar: Aina coffee shop endukandi, edina gudilo kalisevallam kada.. akkadite janaalu manalni vinthaga chudaru. ikkada chudandi andaru manalni edo special ga chustaru” annadu koddiga tana ibbandini teliyaparustu

Saranya: malli andi annav chudu. Eesaari andi ante nenu lechi vellipota” andi koddiga aatapattistu

Sagar: ayyo ayyo.. sorry andi. inkosari ante alage cheyandi. ippatinundi jagrattaga untanu

Saranya: hammayya. bratikinchavu. Gudiki velte naku telisina vallu chuse chance undi. ikkadite ma relatives vache chance ledu. Aina ikkada coffee chala famous. Hyderabad lo best coffee ide naku. 

Sagar: oh alaga. sarele. aithe rendu coffee order iddam” antu waiter ki chetito signal chesadu. Waiter ragaen rendu coffee order ichadu. 

Sagar: Neninka nammalekapotunna Saranya. manamiddaram kalisi ila coffee taagadaniki vachamante” annadu kallu peddavi chesi excitement kudina gonthu tho. 

Saranya: Ayyo, anta excite avvaku. appudappudu nenu friends tho vasta ila coffee taagadaniki

ventane koddiga disappoint aina Sagar confusion lo kuda paddadu, Saranya tho vache friends boys ah girls ah ani. kani endukule adagadam bagundadu anukoni silent aipoyadu. 

Saranya: aina indulo ne goppatanam emundi. aaroju nenu exam center lo ninnu pilichi matladakapoyunte nuvu alage vellipoyevadivi..pirikoda” andi chilipiga navvutu. 

Sagar: Nijamele” annadu waiter techina coffee ni teesukuntu. 

<Exact ga 15 days back last exam roju center lo em jarigindante>

Sagar Pallavito matladadaniki chance ledani inka asalu vadulukoni ala main gate vaipu nadavasaagadu. intalo venakanundi “Hi andi” evaro pilicharu. venakki tirigi chuste akkada Pallavi okate nilabadi undi tanane chustu. 

Sagar: Nannena andi.

ammayi: avundandi, mimmalne, sorry me peru teliyadu

Sagar: oh, no problem andi, na peru Sagar, kani me peru naku telusu- Pallavi kada”

ammayi: Pallavi na? na peru Saranya andi, pallavi kadu” ani andi

Sagar: avuna, mari aaroju Goutam tho Pallavi annaru” ani adigadu ashcharyam tho

Saranya: Oh ada. Aa Goutam urike anni details adugutonte, real details cheppadam endukule ani wrong name cheppa. enthaina ammayilam kada. koddiga jagrattaga undali” ani andi navvukuntu

Daniki Sagar manasulo “avunulendi, na kharma koddi aa peru meru cheppadam nenu vinnanu. dani valla aaroju night anta Orkut lo Pallavi ani search chesanu exam ki prepare avakunda. chi” ani tanameda tane chiraku padutu, baitaku matram navvutu “avunandi, nijame” annadu Saranya tho. 

Saranya: by the way, meku thanks cheppali, aaroju maths exam roju help chesinanduku. meru help cheyakapote aa Goutam emi raasevadu kadu, nenu fail ayyedanni. Chala thanks Sagar” andi

Sagar: ayyo parledandi. Danidemundi. it’s ok” annadu. 

Saranya: ok Sagar. aithe nenu veltanu” andi muduku adugu vestu

Sagar ki ventane arthamaindi, ee chance miss chesukunte malli eppatiki raadu ani. so tanalo leni dhairyam kuda kudagattukoni Saranyatho “Emandi, meku Orkut unda?” ani adigadu. 

Saranya: Ledu Sagar. enduku” ani adigindi amayakamga natistu

Sagar: em ledu.. friend request pampiddamani” annadu Sagar tadabadutu

Saranya: nenu Orkut vaadanu Sagar. ne mobile number unte cheppu. eppudina ma dad cell nundi SMS chesta” ani andi

Sagar ki ventane mobile lekapovadam exam fail aina situation kante ghoramani arthamaindi. Kani em cheyaleka “ma college lo mobiles not allowed andi. anduke konaledu” annadu

eelopu dooramga unna Saranya friends tanani pilustu unnaru veldam ani. Saranya vallaki vastunna ani tala ooputu signal chesindi. 

Saranya: “parledule Sagar. ma friends pilustunnaru, nenu vellali” andi tondarapadutu

elagaina tanani contact lo unchukovalanukunna Sagar chivari prayatnam chesadu

Sagar: Aithe ok. repu ekkadina kalustara. koddiga free ga matladukovachu” annadu bhayapadutu. Saranya ila adagadam nachutundo ledo, emantundo ani tension paddadu. 

Kani Saranya cool ga matladindi “Repu ma family anta north India tour veltunnam. oka 2 weeks raamu, aithe 2 weeks tarwata vache Saturday evening 5’O clock ki Kukatpalli lo unde Friends Cafe ki vaste matladochu.” andi Sagar ki ishtamaite rammani.

Ekkadaleni santhosham vachindi Sagar ku. moham lo ventane oka velugu vachindi. Tanani kalavadam ide last roju kaadu anna nijam tana anandaanni rettimpu chesindi. okka kshanam kuda vrudha cheyakunda “sure ga vastanandi. khachitamga 5 gantalaku aaroju akkadiki vastanu. meeru matram marichipokunda randi.” ani cheptu Saranya nundi koddiga dooram velladam start chesadu

Saranya kuda tana friends vaipu nadustu, “ok aithe aaroju meet avudam” ani cheppi vellipoindi. Sagar genthulesukuntu vachi tana college bus ekkadu. Friends “emaindira, antha anandamga unnavu” ani adigite “exams aipoyayi kadara.. anduke anandam” ani abaddam cheppadu. 

Ala 15 rojulu lekka pettukuntu wait chesi wait chesi, aaroju 5 gantalaku coffee shop ki vachadu Sagar. 

Saranya inka Sagar Coffee taagutu okarinokaru parichayam chesukunnaru. 

Saranya: Medi ye ooru?

Sagar: Kurnool, mari meedi.

Saranya: Maadi ikkadele. Nanna JNTU professor. Chala strict. 

Sagar: Haha, aithe eppudu chaduvu chaduvu ani ne vente untaranamta me nanna

Saranya: avunu. aina chaduvu matter endukule. Me amma nanna em chestuntaru?

Sagar: Nanna oka restaurant lo cook. Kurnool lone. Amma 4 yella munde chanipoindi. Cancer valla. ani cheppadu badhapadutu. 

Saranya ventane shock aindi. Koddiga jaali kuda vesindi Sagar meda. Ventane “Ayyo sorry Sagar, aunty ki ala aindani teliyaka adigi ninnu badha pettaanu. Really sorry” ani andi

Sagar: Parledule Saranya. appatlo ma paristhiti bagaleka ala jarigipoindi. Nenu baga chaduvukovalani, ma nanna laga kashtapadakudadani ma amma asa. Ma nanna kuda nannu anduke ikkadidaka pampinchi chadivistunnadu” annadu koddiga valla nannani pogudutu proud ga. 

Saranya: hmm. good boy anamata aithe” andi navvutu. Sagar siggupaddadu. 

Saranya: Sare aithe inka veldama. Ma nanna malli late aithe tidataru. 

Kani Sagar undabattaleka adigesadu “inkoddisepu undochu kada” ani Saranaya vaipu chudakunda, kindaku chustu. 

Saranya ventane “Babu.. nekoka dandam. khachitamga nannu ma intlo tittinchetlugane unnavu” “ Inkosari eppudina meet avudamule” andi koddiga ooratanichelaaga

Ventane Sagar ki malli kalavochu ani anandamesina kuda, ela contact avvalo artham kaledu. kabatti Bitaki “Okay” anna kuda, lolopala satamatamavutunnadu. Ippudu vadileste malli ela matladalo ani. 

eelopu waiter vachadu bill ivvadaniki. Ventane Saranya bill laakkunesindi. Sagar “Saranya, ila ivvu. nenu kadata” annadu aatramga. 

“Vaddule. nene kada ikkadiki invite chesindi. nene pay chesta. parledule”andi. 

Sagar: “Ala ela, oka ammayitho bill kattiste na paruvu potundi” annadu

Saranya: Navvutu “Abbo.. aithe next saari nuvve place decide chesi party ivvule. appudu nenu wallet kuda teesukuraanu” ani andi

Sagar daniki “sare aithe next time naa party” annadu amayakamga, tana phone number kuda teesukokunda..

Kani Saranaya chala telivaindi. Sagar la kaadu. Kabatti ventane adigesindi chilipiga “ne hostel room nundi paavuram tho pamputava kaburu?” ani. Daniki Sagar ventane naluka korukkoni “marem cheyali” annadu

Saranya: ne roommate or friend di evaridina phone number unte cheppu. Ma dad cell nundi daniki call chesi netho matladatanu” andi

ventane prapanchanni jayinchinantha anandapadi, “ma roommate Anil ki mobile undi. Secret ga maintain chestunnadu. Vadi number ista. daniki call chesi Sagar ani adugu. naaku istadu” ani antu waiter ni adigi oka paper teesukoni andulo Anil number raasi ichadu. 

Saranya adi teesukoni bill kattesi baitakochindi. Sagar Saranya tho paatu vachadu. Saranya tana yellow colour scooty teesi start chesi “Bye Sagar. It was nice meeting you” andi. Sagar ki okavaipu anandam, marovaipu baadha. “Bye Saranya. jagratta ga vellu” annadu. 

Saranya oka chirunavvu navvi vellipoindi. Sagar gunde chala bharamaindi. Tanu Sagar nundi dooramga vellagane chala chala miss ayyadu. Ala nadustu velli busstop lo digaaluga kurchoni bus kosam wait chesadu.  

What is the point of living?

Birth and death are not invented by human himself and they happen regardless of anything. It is beyond our reach to know what is the exact reason behind our birth. Each religion may give its own reason but proving it is highly impossible. So let's not worry about our birth and death but only worry about what we need to do during the period between them i.e. Life.

Except for a few people like you and me who keep reevaluating what we do, rest all are carried away by their emotions and don't even think about what they are doing. There is only one reason why they don't think so -  they are busy in moving their goalpost and keep struggling to reach that goal. These goals can be a new car, new furniture, new appliances, new house, new gold ornaments and new assets etc. Only people who are satisfied with what they have (material things) can only think about their life more seriously. They are busy in the pursuit of knowledge, satisfaction and happiness. I think you are one among them and that's why you are looking for this answer.

To answer your question, we all live to make each other's lives better. Almost all the things we are using today are all inventions/discoveries by the humankind and they all made our lives a lot easier and enabled us to know/do more and more.

Each of us are also working for something that will make human lives better. If you go a level deeper, the company which you are working for is delivering some products or services which will ultimately make everyone's life easier. So you are also part of this revolution. People generally think we work for money. Of course you get money but you still try for something more. That means money doesn't give what you wanted. It will just be a means to purchase other products/services that will make your life easier. You still crave for something more.

So you want satisfaction. Satisfaction comes when we look at what we are doing as something that addresses the problems of the world today. The only way to get satisfied is by bringing smiles on other faces and by reducing hardship for others.

So the purpose of your life is to do something that changes lives in a positive way. You are already doing it. It's just that you need to start appreciating it. Or if you are not doing it try to do it by choosing a field and working in that relentlessly until you see a positive impact of your work. Writing an inspirational book, shooting a documentary on social evils or recording your own album to entertain others can be some. Only thing is that you need to keep checking how much it is impacting others’ lives. Then only you will be satisfied and you will find the purpose of your life. All the best.

Is Changing Law a Real Change?

At a time when everyone is talking about legalising same sex marriages, don't you think there are still problems to be resolved in opposite sex marriages in India. If anyone thinks that we, in India, have got complete freedom to marry a person of opposite sex, then I can firmly say that he/she is dreaming. I urge them to come to reality.

When I say freedom, I'm not talking about the freedom law gave it to us. I was referring to the freedom to express one's feelings, freedom to fall in love with anything and freedom to fight against irrational concepts of the society. Though legally you are free to do all these things, you are never allowed to listen to your heart thanks to the society we are living in. We are living in the world where you can never talk about your feelings for a person of opposite sex to your parents. It's a taboo. Thanks to urbanisation and westernisation, very few families have developed that culture of openly discussing everyone's views and arriving at logical decisions. I have seen people celebrating when their parents accept their relationships. Have we not come out of that age where parents accepting your partner is a thing to celebrate yet?

Coming back to the case of same sex marriages, the argument is that because of some changes in their hormones, they never get attracted to a person of opposite sex which is very similar to the case of a straight man never getting attracted to another man. If you want to understand a gay's feelings when society forces him to marry a girl, just imagine asking a straight girl to marry another girl. In both the cases, there is no difference in the magnitude of mental pain felt. Here the question is not about same sex or opposite sex. It's all about a person's own choice of life partner. The bottom line to be understood is that a person, either straight or LGBT, feels the same dejection when not allowed to live with a person of one's own choice.

So, legalising is never a solution for a problem until each and every person understands the real reason behind it. There are plenty of examples for it. Corruption is rampant in India though it's illegal and honour killings are not a history yet even though marrying a person of other caste is legal in India. Tomorrow LGBTs will still be persecuted even after legalising same sex marriages. Until change comes from within people, enforcing it on an entire nation is impossible even for the supreme court. After all, no one wants to listen to anyone.

Lust or Love? Only He Knows

Just in this morning after waking up, I headed directly towards our hall to pick up my favorite Hindu newspaper. Though I am lazy, I spend some time in getting myself acquainted with the world. After reading regular politics and movies, I couldn’t take my eyes off one particular news item on the last page of main edition. You know what it is? - “Court: Having sex when there is intention to marry is not rape”. That court was Supreme Court of India and I could be spotted one among many who hailed this judgement without second thought.

Let me put forth some points from that judgement.

1. If a girl engages in sexual intercourse with her bf on a promise to get married and later finds him reneging on his promise doesn’t entitle her to file a rape case against him.

2. A girl can be matured enough to foresee the consequences of not getting married by any chance and act cautiously.

3. A girl having consensual sex with her bf might be outcome of her love for him or uncontrollability of their emotions but not necessarily mean to get married.

4. A guy can’t fulfill his promise under certain circumstances though he is completely willing to marry her.

This may completely look misogynistic but that can be dismissed by one point in judgement-

“An accused can be convicted for rape only if the court reaches a conclusion that the intention of the accused was mala fide, and that he had clandestine motives.”

The above statement looks funny to me as it can never be proved that a guy had sex with an intention of satisfying his lust. One always maintains that he really loves her and can’t marry because of unforeseen reasons. Many of my friends must have known this ;-)

 

Keeping the judgement apart for a while, one must know that there are no real girls who go to court for getting exploited when in relationship. In fact, girls (not all) have become so open-minded that they took premarital sex as simple as eating pizza and playing tennis as was told in a Hollywood movie. Though having sex before marriage looked as simple as I told, it creates unnecessary problems to both parties. I, being confused with this aspect, will never oppose or support premarital sex.

Coming back to our SC judgement, there are three ways of taking this landmark judgement.

1. One group takes it as a restraint: Girls can have sex with their partners before marriage but should keep mum once they come to know that their marriage was a mirage.

2. Another group takes it as an advisory: Girls should refrain from premarital sex and do not fall prey to cheating and misguidance.

3. There is always a third group which takes it as an offer: Indian youth are allowed to have premarital sex extensively until both girl and boy are happy and can opt out of marriage if they have issues.

Being a great admirer of Supreme Court, I believe its decision doesn’t intend to develop view#1 or view#3 among Indian youth but to throw view#2 as it strives for women safety with dignity.

Open Eyes by Closing Ears

Around 10 years back when I was in higher school, there was one question posed to me very frequently by my friends, relatives and teachers as well. “What do you want to become in the future?” Much before I utter anything they themselves answered, “What else! You are good at mathematics, so will become an engineer.” I felt very happy J as if I had already become an engineer and asked everyone I came across as to what would an engineer do. I received only one answer that an engineer builds buildings. Since then I promised everyone that I would build a house for them once I become an engineer. I had no second thought as my career option.

With the same spirit, I secured 100% in maths in 10^th and Intermediate. Only after getting a good rank in CET, I came to know that there were many engineering branches out of which civil engineering (that will make me deliver on my promise) is one. The same people who misled me 4 years back have got matured a bit (like I did) and urged me to take ECE as it had huge demand in the market. Thought with my immature mind, I decided to go for ECE and developed interest towards it. My 2^nd misconception about my career happened there when I thought that I would become a scientist and launch PSLVs sitting with Madhavan Nair (former ISRO chairman).

Moving towards that goal, I assumed that I would get required skills from knowledgeable professors of my alma mater. But that remained an assumption instead of turning into reality. The reason being the conviction of our professors that their students don’t expect anything from them but marks. The result is well-known to you that my dream vehicles had landed in the ocean without launching any satellites. L

Again, around 5 years back from now when I was in my 2^nd year B.Tech, there was one question posed to me very frequently by none other than my seniors. “What do you want to become in the future?” Much before I utter anything they themselves answered, “What else! You are doing B.Tech, so will write GATE.” Immediately I sensed that I was gonna become a fool again as I had already been a victim of societal misguidance. I didn’t want to fall prey to those mindless advices again. So I decided to take a completely different path which was of my real interest. Then surfaced this MBA ambition which needed exactly those skills (commonsense, logic, communication, ethics and social responsibility etc.) that, I believed, require lesser teacher’s interaction but more self-interaction. That is the time, during my CAT preparation, I found the value of interacting with oneself.

I don’t rule out the fact that I was/am still getting unsolicited advices regarding my career to try for a govt. job, write IAS, go for MS and even to get settled with s/w jobL. I really don’t want to make the mistake again by listening to people instead of listening to myself even after 24 years of my experience with the world. According to me, one knows what does one want. People deviate from their interests not just because they are clueless of their goals, but also because they lack courage to pursue their goals. Maybe, this worthy quote by an unpopular American writer ignites lot of our minds - “Don't follow any advice, no matter how good, until you feel as deeply in your spirit as you think in your mind that the counsel is wise.”  

P.S: I deliberately avoided discussing my IT career as it deserves a separate post ;)